Stars, Moon and the Universe

Jika aku sedih, aku akan tertawa

Jika aku tertekan, aku akan menyanyi

Jika aku berkelimpahan, kupikir pada kekurangan yang lalu

Jika aku miskin, kupikirkan kekayaan yang mendatang

Jika aku merasa sangat berkuasa, kucoba menghentikan angin

Jika aku merasa terlalu percaya, kuingat akan kegagalan masa lalu

Jika aku merasa tidak mampu, kuingat sukses masa laluku

Jika aku mendapat kekayaan yang melimpah, kuingat mulut-mulut yang kelaparan

Jika aku terlalu bangga, kuingat saat-saat aku lemah

Jika aku menikmati masa kejayaan, kuingat saat kegagalanku

Kemarin gw stress berat…wah bahan yang buat skripsi gw bener2 susah banget nyarinya di inet…dah seminggu lebih gw searching dan hasilnya ga ada yang memuaskan… Gw sudah mencoba untuk bersabar tapi seminggu bo ga ketemu2…!! Gw liat temen2 gw yang lancar2 aja bikin gw sedikit iri. Dalam hati gw berkata “kok gw ga bisa kayak dia ya?”. Tapi emang Tuhan tuh ga bakalan ngebiarin anaknya jatuh begitu saja.

Gw punya banyak banget guardian angels….Guardian angels tetap gw adalah my parents…mereka emang selalu ngebantuin gw SELALU. Tapi 3 bulan terakhir ini ge punya yang baru, yaitu cowo gw.

Dia selalu ngedukung gw…walo gw udah give up on myself…dia tetep ga give ngedukung gw. Gw bener2 bersyukur dapet dia karena gw jadi ga patah semangat. Walo gw nangis, dia tetep ngedengerin (walo mungkin suara gw jadi ga jelas wkwkwk). Walo gw putus asa, dia tetep nyemangatin gw. Walo gw cemberut, dia tetep ngasi senyuman terbaiknya biar gw senyum lagi. Walo gw takut, dia tetep di sana nemenin gw.

How lucky I am to have such guardian angel. I think he will always be my guardian angel, so I will try my best to be his guardian angel.

I hate the fact that you’re so far away from me.

I hate it when I call you and you never answer the phone.

I hate it when you work too hard.

I hate you for being a bad gossiper cos you’re always positive, and it’s infectious.

I hate the way you beg me to bake, cos at the end I always do it and actually enjoy the process of baking.

I also hate it when you ask me to sing, cos I always don’t know what song to sing.

I hate the way you compliment my pictures even if I look really bad.

I hate it when you hang up the phone, cos I still miss you and wanna talk to you more even if it’s late.

I hate it even more when you text me after calling me cos it makes me wanna dial your number.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
not even close…
not even a little bit…
not even at all.

*couldn’t help quoting the last bit from the original poem cos it’s so cool and true :)*

I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around,

and the fact that you didn’t call.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

not even close…

not even a little bit…

not even at all.

*I totally love this poem. Taken from the film 10 Things I Hate About You*

Deutoronomy 4:9
"But be careful! Watch out and don’t forget the things you have seen. Don’t forget them as long as you live, but teach them to your children and grandchildren"

I read this verse from the Bible a few days ago as I was reading my Bible at night (as usual). There’s something about this verse that makes me say ‘it’s so me!’. I have had a wonderful past, one which I’ll never forget. Some people might know that I spent 4,5 wonderful years in England…and it wasn’t just the time that I spent in this far away country but it was the experience and the friends that I gained from it. I miss my England everyday but I know that I shouldn’t dwell within this sadness and I shouldn’t think about how I miss England every day!

From this verse I realized that all this time I’ve been asking stupid questions like "why did I have to leave England? Why do I have to leave my friends?"…and those questions have been ringing in my ears for years….And now I know why God put me there only for 4,5 years.
It wasn’t because He wanted me to taste great friendship then take it away from me.
It wasn’t because He wanted me to suffer.
It wasn’t because He wanted me to miss all my friends.
It wasn’t because He wanted me to take me away from my friends.

It was because He wanted me to give me an experience.
It was because He wanted me to experience the true meaning of friendship.
It was because He wanted me to be in a world completely different to me and yet I could still feel His love through my friends.
It was because He wanted me to see different things through the eyes’ of many people.
It was because He wanted me to share my experience to others.

Remember always, don’t forget the things that you have seen. Even if those memories are sad, happy, good, bad…remember them but don’t dwell in them…just remember them so you can tell to your children and grandchildren about your mistakes, your fun, your happiness, your sadness so they will know.

What is more wonderful than rain??? I got completely soaked yesterday because of the stupid rain…and my trousers got all wet and everyone looked at me in this gobsmacked way…what can I say if there was someone like me, I’d stare at them in the same way!
And the lecturers seem to have made a decision on ‘let’s torture our students by giving them endless work in such a rainy day’. I’d prefer to go to bed…! Is there any uni in the world that doesn’t give out any work at all?? I’d love to apply there…

I recently read a book with the title "The Earth, My Butt and Other Big Round Things". I think this book is just perfect for me. It talks about a girl that is overweight and she has no confidence over her body at all that she starts to do all this crazy diet. At the end she realizes that it’s not the outside that matters. I specially like this sentence in that book.

"If you were given 2 presents, a large one and a small one, which one would attract you more?? The large one right??! Who says great things always come in small packages?? Great things can come in large packages too"

F-A-T…why is it that people are so easy to say those three letters?? Sometimes people think that they say it as a joke but what they don’t actually know is that it’s a very hurtful thing to say. I personally don’t like to be called FAT. It’s tormenting for me to hear such words coming out of someone I know. Though I just laugh it off, it has actually burned a mark.

You know…it would make me feel a whole lot better if people would just stop making fun of other people’s weight..

I might be the most pissed off girl in the whole wide world. I mean what happens if you’ve done some work…some voluntary work…and you’ve done your best and all your friends like it but there’s just one person who keeps saying it’s bad and that one person hasn’t even seen my work yet. Well that happens to me! I mean it’s not like as if I did it badly cos everyone seems to like it but no she just has to say it’s bad and not up to her expectations…I mean no offence but me and my friends don’t even get paid for this but we’re happy to do it cos we like it and we’ve worked so hard for this without anyone’s training and we even had to use our own laptop cos we keep getting kicked out from the computers in the office! Grrr! I mean I don’t mind if she disagrees with something but it’s the way she talks that annoys me…!!!!!